The Feelings that keep on giving

​Do you ever wish that your feelings would just go away? You just don’t have the time to deal with the emotions that are present and maybe they remind you of your past. After all, you already dealt with those feelings, right? Why are they back?! Or, maybe you have tried to just ignore them, hoping they would go away.  Those feelings are so frustrating and the pain that comes with them can be too much. 

Maybe they remind you of a part of you that you just want to forget about. But she/he keeps holding on, longing to be acknowledged. Maybe it’s a side of you that is weak, sad, and vulnerable. A side of you that you tried so hard to distance yourself from and forget about, but is a part of you, leaving this task impossible. You tried to separate from him/her because the “new you” just wanted to be strong. But now the facade is starting to fade and you can’t hide him/her anymore. They are seeping out, whether you give them permission to or not, and the pain follows.

You try so hard to keep yourself put together, appearing strong. Which is everything that the other part of you is NOT.AT.ALL. 

Is it possible that he/she just needs to be acknowledged, because they never were. Is it possible that you are treating them just as everyone else did, ignoring their existence. Maybe he/she just needs a chance to have a voice and be heard. Maybe she/he just needs a chance to cry. Screw that facade, they just need to be sad, not to be strong for once and just be supported. 

How much of your time are you spending trying to appear strong and put together? How much of your energy is spent towards ignoring that weak part of you that you wish would just go away and is begging to be acknowledged? 

How can you offer yourself a little compassion? 

What would it look like if you opened yourself up to reconnecting with that part of you that carries all of the pain?  What if you offered them compassion, letting them know that you have not truly forgotten her/him? 

Just know, you do not have to face this alone.

How can I support you?
Brittany Wingfield